"to have found God and to still pursue Him is the soul's paradox of love."
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I'm back in North Carolina for a short time, its good to be back home. There is no place like the farm. It's so quiet, and peaceful. I was so fortunate and blessed to grow up here. Country living does a lot of beautiful heart and character building that city life doesn't even give the slightest to. As I came home from the city, which I do really like, I realized though how much living on this farm made me the women I am today. And I don't take it for granted. As I walked through the farm the birds were singing so beautifully, I want to be a bird. Nothing ever stops them from singing. Something about all the beautiful green trees, and stillness makes me feel so much closer to God and I can feel Him drawing me in. Looking at the plants and flowers, I noticed how beautifully the rose bush was blooming. And it pricked a tender spot in my heart. Ever feel like you've given all of yourself away and now theres nothing left? That you've given everything inside of your heart till your empty? People you care about ever say unkind things that make you feel worthless? People you love, that you would do anything for ever stop loving you as deep leaving you wondering why you couldn't be enough? Ever given something away and it left you broken, feeling like it stole your value? Me too. But you know what? There's beautiful in that broken place. You aren't too broken, too used. You aren't those things people believe and say about you. You aren't worthless and you are beyond enough. Your value hasn't degreased. As I walked by the rose bush I paused and a perfect rose stood out to me. In the quietness, as I reached for the rose God whispered to my heart, "that's you!" It struck me by surprise and I stood there gazing at the rose pondering what He could have meant by that. The rose starts as a small green bud and over time it blossom into a perfect beautiful pink rose. Its simple and delicate but yet complexed and strong. Each rose is a little different, uniquely beautiful in its own way. Some have little "flaws" but each one is perfect. Just the way it is. And this is what Jesus was saying to me: You're simple and delicate, you love deep and give all of yourself relentlessly. Yet you're complex, deep and strong. You don't give up in the face of battle, but face it like Daniel facing Goliath. You've been broken, bruised, battered and torn and you've managed to keep your heart open, gentle and full of love. It has not left you less valuable or less beautiful, less worthy or worthless. But perfectly beautiful shining in the shaping that took place in the budding process. That pain, those harsh unkind words, they aren't true. I know you, I see your heart and all the things they don't. Hear me, for what I say of you is true. Though you feel more broken and worthless than you've ever felt, you are more beautiful than you've ever been. For all that you've been through you've allowed and I've used to change you, to mold you and transform you into a beautiful strong women. You've allowed pain to make you more sympathetic, empathetic, understanding and gentle. You've allowed it to soften your heart. Most of all You've allowed it to draw you and deepen your longing and love for Me. Your value has only increased for all you've been through, not degreased. For you've come out twice the person you were before. You are different than all the other girls, you choose me, you choose my ways, you seek to be a women of godliness. And the value of that is incomparable. The beauty and treasure of your heart doesn't go unnoticed. Your efforts in becoming more like Me aren't in vain. You've chosen love nomatter how hard its been. You have no idea the beauty I see in you for I put it there. Its okay if everyone doesn't see it. It doesn't make it any less there. You are a beautiful, perfect rose. I have chosen and picked you. That rose? Thats you. Beautiful and perfect right here, right now. As painful though it be, never let the words of others make you bitter or hateful towards them. When life hits you with unexpected pain and you're tempted to close off your heart and let it harden. When people don't see your value or how much you're trying and changing and becoming. Choose Jesus: choose love. For love is patient and love is kind. Love doesn't care who's wrong or who's right. It doesn't boast or envy. And it never quits no matter what. It's not selfish, it doesn't seek its own. It's selfless, self-sacrificing. It's never proud or forceful. Love never fails or gives up. It never holds grudges but forgives and forgets. The list goes on... We are called to be love. We are called to be like Jesus. One and the same. For Jesus is love. When you choose love, when love wins in your heart, no matter the circumstances, no matter what your going through or been through. When love wins in your heart, your beauty grows. choose Love! Though you feel more broken and worthless then you've ever felt, you are more beautiful than you've ever been. That rose? Thats you. Beautiful and perfect right here, right now.
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Jeff
5/28/2019 12:43:07 pm
Guys need to hear this too. Thanks again for sharing. Jesus is in you, it shines through all your posts.
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