"to have found God and to still pursue Him is the soul's paradox of love."
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Note: this post is belated. I wrote this Sabbath, August the 24th. I haven't posted it because I hesitated to. Sometimes it's hard to be vulnerable. Most people these days don't like the real. They don't want to hear about real life struggles and pain. But I know each of us faces battles, pain and hurt and I really want to always be real even in the tough things. I pray my words touch you in some way, and encourage your heart.
Today I was sitting in church and my heart was heavy. I felt like every broken place, every scar and cut, every imperfection could be seen at first glance by the whole world. The worship team began to sing the beautiful song “Reckless Love”, and tears began to fill my eyes. Here I was simple and sincere. Heart wide open, I’d been broken, used and bruised. I’d given every part of my heart away, its been torn apart and made to feel valueless. I am no one magnificent. I'm not better than anyone else, infact I felt quite worse than most. But the words touched my soul as I quietly, in whispering tones, sang the words, “when I was Your foe, still Your love fought for me. You have been so, so good to me. When I felt no worth, You paid it all for me. You have been so, so good to me.” That song was the perfect reminder of what I needed. It was Him saying, “hey don't believe those lies again. We know who you are. Believe what I say for I know you best. I love you best. And you are THIS valuable to ME!” He has completely blown me away with the support and care, the little details and thoughtful ways He has cared for me. sometimes what we think is going to ruin us, is exactly what will build us. if we let Jesus turn pain into growth, we will come out twice as beautiful. those scars don't have to be ugly. they tell a story, of what you've been through and what you've allowed Him to do through it in you. those broken pieces make you humble and understanding towards others. they make you aware that you aren't perfect and you need your Savior desperately. pain can make you soft, gentle and kind. gold is tried in the fire, to be purified. and thats exactly what this is. He is creating a heart of gold in you. Has someone made you feel like you're a train wreck, that you could never be loved because you struggle too much, that you’re too much of a mess? Has someone ever made you feel like you aren’t good, that there’s only bad in you? Has someone ever said things of you that weren’t true and you started to believe them because you believed that they loved you so they must be right? If you’ve ever felt like you try so hard and its never enough. If you’ve been swimming with all your might, doing the best you know how, trying to stay a float only to feel like you’re a failure. If you’ve been lied to about yourself and you’ve believed it. Wounded your own soul by embracing someone else's ignorance of who you really are. If you feel unlovable, even unlikeable. The left overs, the left behind. If you feel no worth. No value. If you feel no goodness in you. Empty of beauty. Hear these words. He left all of heaven for you. The best, the kingliest, the kindest, the award-winning Lover, the best you could ever get….He loves you! The truest, most understanding, the best listening and compassionate heart, He has set His life to befriend you. The most faithful, caring Father has called You His own child; the heir of His kingdom. Oh dear one who feels your sinfulness and nothingness. If you feel unloveable, unwanted or disliked, Jesus set His heart upon you! Your heart is His constant pursuit. As the song says there’s no mountain He won’t climb up, there’s no barrier He won’t break down, no giant He won’t knock down just to get to your heart. Nothing can stop Him not even death. He would do anything for you. He lives to listen to your every word. He is at your side at every moment. He will hold you when no one else is there to enfold you; He wraps you in His incomparable love. If He does not see fit to light up your darkness, He will light a small candle and sit with you in the shadows until the sun comes up again. He longs to heal every wound, to fill every hole and to gently hold and protect your heart. He longs to cover you with His love, to supply your every need. He has only your best interest in mind and never allows "needless pain and strife." everything He uses for your good. even this. you my friend, are heavens treasure. you have a heart of gold for this is what He has given you. even His own. hold that tightly in your heart.
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Tulia Florence
10/23/2019 05:22:16 am
I feel you... God is good.
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